Mel B is all set to reveal the shocking moment she attempted suicide by swallowing 200 aspirin in a luxury rented apartment in Kensington, London in h
Mel B is all set to reveal the shocking moment she attempted suicide by swallowing 200 aspirin in a luxury rented apartment in Kensington, London in her new book, Brutally Honest set to published on November 27, an event she blames on her ex.
“I can’t pretend I’m not living in some twisted, violent hell. My life is a mess and I want out. I was at rock bottom, I was exhausted, worn down by seven years of constant emotional abuse, mind games, degradation, threats and sexual exploitation. I was drinking too much – wine, vodka, tequila – and had lost all self-respect. I was lost,” Mel writes.
The 43-year-old recalls: “As each pill goes into my mouth, I ask myself, “Are you sure?” And I take another one. Ten, twenty, fifty. One hundred. “Are you sure?”‘ Mel recounts how it was her second time trying to commit suicide, the first being when she was aged 14 in her modest home in Kirkstall, Leeds in the UK having stolen some pills from the family cupboard.
“I knew I didn’t want to go anywhere. Suicide was not the answer. I had to make my life count. I had to get to a hospital. I had to get those pills out of my stomach before anything happened.”
Mel B and ex husband, Stephan Belafonte
The former Spice Girl details how she hit rock bottom the night before the UK X Factor grand final red carpet in 2014, and how she was drinking heavily and snorting lines of cocaine in between X Factor shoots to deal with depression. The 43 year old also opens up about her love of sex and threesomes, her controversial relationship with Eddie Murphy, her sadness over her father’s death and her fractious relationship with the Spice Girls.
She also confesses to having a string of cosmetic surgeries and even a vaginal rejuvenation to get over her divorce. But the main theme of the explosive memoir is her roller coaster ten-year marriage with Stephen Belafonte. The America’s Got Talent judge accuses her ex of years of emotional and physical abuse, driving her to the brink.
“I know what it’s like to be beaten down. I know what it’s like to be punched, humiliated, isolated and to feel there is no way out except suicide,” she writes.
In her message at the front of the book Mel insists ‘lies and mistruths’ kept her trapped for long enough and now, ‘I want the truth to set me free.’ She adds: ‘I am ready to say what really happened to me…’ But in Brutally Honest, while she regularly alludes to violence, Mel includes no details of any of the several beatings she alleged she received from Belafonte in court papers during their bitter divorce last year. In court documents filed in a bid to win a temporary domestic violence restraining order against Belafonte, Mel branded her ex a monster and told a horrific story of abuse.
The exclusion seems even more bizarre given she has included an anecdote about being beaten by her ex-husband Jimmy Gulzar. Belafonte, 43, has always denied domestic abuse and says he’s never beaten her and to date no evidence has been presented to suggest otherwise.
